umm i love to play my guitar and i have been playing since 16 i am in a band... i love music and art ... i am crazy and like to do random things... i love God


things that make me angry ---->
-when people dont say goodbye when they leave ( this cause i will not see them leave and then spend hours looking for them)
-when your reading book and people call at the really good parts
-when u are playing guitar and people call to talk about there problems ( haha if i am playing guitar it mean i am working on song if i have to listen to your problems then i have one cause i cant finsh my song DUH! people think )
-when people get drunk and think it would be fun to call me at 3 in morning when i am actually sleeping
-when couples do that whole like name calling like cupcake and suger lips and muffin i dont want to be call a food i am not goint to let u eat me

haha now keep them in mind and i will always love you
things that make me giggle ---->
-the word DUTY i dont know know y i just start laughing
-when guys hit on me ( if i dont laugh u have no chance)
-when u are reading a love story and u finally the girl falls for the guy
-when guys try to be all strong or try scare me i find it amusing
-when u are not suspose to laugh but your friend is crying with mascra is all over face and she looks so funny crying ( i usually cry with them so i look just stupid but i cant see myself )

*empty spaces*
empty space that use to be filled
now are quiet and still
oh how my heart longs for them to be filled
it seemed like yesterday you were here
with smile that gave me chills
now tomorrow come and i can only dread
more empty spaces filled with other instead
crazy but they will never add up
for them to pretend they can be you
is one big joke
so i sit alone next to empty chair
this empty chair is where u filled
empty spaces all around
oh how i wish you could fill them

"deeper"
Deeper then what you see
You may think you know me
Push and shove to get me talk
Only so that I can fight you
I don’t just take things from you
You may think you know best
That you help put my heart at rest
Wonders of my mind you will never see
I built walls all around me
There is only one door
And there is only one key
The key is someone lost in hope
That someone might come and rescue me
My God locked in but he needs no key
He has told me he would never leave me
The world can watch me scream and fight
And judge me for they can never know me
They see me fall but they only laugh
When I rise again they can only run
My enemies they know my God
They know they can stand no chance
If want to know me
Ask God where is the key?

this one my poems that got published i laughed cause they found it half finshed on the ground and then called me up and asked me to finsh it so they could publish it in the news letter
Hidden

Hidden you do not see,
Lies make me hide deeper inside of me,
We hide behind lies that only kill
What you have hidden inside of you
Locked in cage is the true you
The key is lost in the sea of worries
This is too deep for any man
Who will know the real me?
Because they only see what on outside of me
I can pretend and act I have done it for so long
I almost forgotten what inside
The girl that hidden inside me
Nights I have spent looking in mirror
Who are you? I don’t know
Where has real me gone?
Tears fall down my face; I feel pain
Like a wall I take down bricks by brick
Layers and layers of lies
The things I have hidden behind
When face with the true me
I can hardly breathe
God, please help me to be who you made me to be

By MJN